Did you ever have that day where you KNOW you are being unreasonable and treating everyone around you like crap even though you aren't mad at them? I just had that day. I was over at a friends and there were three of us there. I kept whining and crying and being a bitch and throwing temper tantrums. After every single unreasonable thing that came out of my mouth i gave myself a little talk. I told myself that I was being unreasonable, that i needed to bite my tongue, and that nothing was the fault of these people. But in spite of telling myself this, things still boiled over. I was so mean and cruel and bitchy i am lucky they didn't just kick me out the door.

why is it that I knew i was being unreasonable and cruel and yet just couldn't stop? I was like a pot that was boiling over. I tried to put the lid on it, but everything just kept leaking out the sides.

What was probably the worst part came afterwards, when i was trying to apologize to one of them. Even then, I would apologize and try to explain my feelings and then something would frustrate me and lead me to a blowup all over again. I was apologizing for being an unreasonable ass and then proceeded to continue to be an unreasonably ass. What sense does that make?